Thursday, June 26, 2008

Belly Bump Bummers! (or rather, a lack thereof)

I had my baby almost 2 years ago. About 4 months after that all my friends started having their babies-including my sister-in-law. It has been so fun for all of us to raise our kids together and it has been a life saver for me. Well, a few months ago I found out one of my best friends, Dani, was pregnant- I was so excited for her! See, she tried for almost a year to get pregnant with her first baby and when I told her that I was pregnant, I found out that she had been trying-it broke my heart. Shortly after I found out she is pregnant with her second baby, another one of my friends told us she is expecting-I was so excited for her too! I knew the day was coming that another friend who had been trying for awhile would tell me that she has a bun in the oven too. Yesterday, her 17 month old told us that he's going to be a big brother. I thought it would be really hard to take, having been off birth control for over 5 months and aching for a baby. But it was surprisingly not. I was truly so excited for her! I wonder if this is because I love babies and want them to have that joy or if it's because of our friendships. Whatever it is, it makes me feel a step closer to being the person I want to be. We all know as women, we have a tendency to compare and I think I'm one of the worst at it. But this gives me hope. Afterall, just because my friends did something right, doesn't mean I did something wrong. Oh, and I'll be waiting to hear that my sweet sister-in-law is expecting. I might even jump for joy like I did last time. :)